April for me was both a wonderful and horrible month at the same time. It was wonderful because I took many trips with my friends and my parents to wonderful destinations and I had an amazing time. It wasn’t such a great month because of information overload and anxiety. I’m super OCD about literally *everything* and I just couldn’t keep up with everything going on, hence the lack of blog posts in April.
April was perhaps my most disorganised and uncontrolled month that I’ve ever experienced, it was just mad. I think I slept for a maximum of six hours each day and I found myself planning too much for the future instead of focusing on the now.
I think this is what we do to ourselves on a daily basis – we plan too much for the future and ask ourselves too many questions and don’t focus on the present and don’t appreciate each day as it goes by. That’s how I felt like through April. I spent too much time planning for the future – that is trips, my education, my future, my life, etc. It was just too overwhelming and I didn’t have time to do anything I like.
I think it is important to take a step back and focus on the now, not the future – that is because nothing in the future is certain. Nothing. The present and what is happening right now, however, is. I’m not saying that planning is bad – it’s great, but too much planning and worrying about the future is not good. Nothing in the future is certain and therefore our plans might work out or might not.
I was talking last night to one of my best friends (who lives in Mexico City), and it turns out he experienced the same feeling throughout the past couple of months – that is anxiety for the future. I think it is actually a common thing to experience as young adults where we constantly need to make decisions and are weighed down by others. I’ve always felt that small anxiety of the future – but last month was a completely different degree of it and I’m just glad it is over.
So, yes, I just wanted to let everyone know that I’m fine and will hopefully resume the daily blogging because I really do miss it. I also miss reading other blogs and reading trip reports, about miles, etc. I haven’t had time at all to keep up with any news in April, everything was just such a mess. So remember, it is important to focus on the now, and not the future. I often don’t think about each day individually and reflect about what has happened – and I think I need to more, because then I will appreciate each day fully and not just let the days pass by.
I spent this weekend really relaxing and putting all of the April stress behind me and I feel like myself again, because I didn’t have a clue who I was or what I was doing last month. Anyway, I haven’t forgotten about travelling or miles/points and I’m still here. I appreciate all of you guys because you’re the reason I constantly want to improve and make my blog better.
Appreciate and live fully each day because everyday that we are above ground is a wonderful one! 🙂